Heart talks

a reconstructed heart

December 15, 2009

What could be the reason why I get so affected by you? What could cause that great emotional impact? Why do I get disturbed? What’s the reason behind the twisting of my wits?

Could it be because…

Every chamber of my heart constitutes you. The blood that runs through my veins is oxygenated by your presence. My blood cells are nourished by your mere existence.  

I remember then…

It’s joy even when you just give a glance. I can’t explain the happiness when I see your smile. It’s blissfulness when I hear you sing with laughter. It’s heaven experiencing   your care and affection.

I can’t endure a day without even a simple hello.  I stumble and fall with your simplest annoyance. I worry much even with your fanciest hurts. And it’s my death when I see you cry in despair.

Everything then was you. The world evolves because of you. The chlorophyll of every leaves is you. The metamorphosis of a cocoon will not be complete without you. You serve as the melody to every song. You are the fox of the Little Prince, the Rose he was forever faithful with. You are the ocean beneath the sunset. And yes, you’re even the rainbow after the rain.

All these I have made to be recognized by you. Everything I perfectly allowed to be realized by you, to be appreciated and accepted by you.But what return had there been?You brought tears into my eyes. I was shattered with anguish, bursting in sorrow. You have caused pain into my nerves. I was crawling in agony, yelling in grief. You have ripped the muscles of my heart, causing me to be living like dead. 

And worst, I can’t do anything, for I can not hurt you in return. Because if I do, the more pain it will cause me.

So finally… 

I will just have to numb my nerves; it’s the defense I can only have, in order for me to have….

a RECONSTRUCTED HEART… 

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