tell it to my heart

January 10, 2010

Was it worth it? When i chose to be with you on those days? Are you the one that I should continue to live for? Should i hold on to the belief that you also care? Was I right when I said that deep in your heart, there’s a wall where my name has been engraved? Should i continue to hold on?                                                                                                   

They say, i was just the one pushing myself to you. They say, it was just an illusion thinking and expecting for the care and the affection to be reciprocated. They say that all that you do is to be the receiver, seldom the giver. They say that I should not continue to love you, because you have not loved me in return. They say that I should start my realization of the big truth that there is more hurt than laughter in being with you. They say that I should finally accept the fact that you are there only when you need me and never when I need you.                                                                                   

But how can I say it to my heart, who is so loyal to you? How can i say it to my heart, when it only stores the beautiful memories of you, as it automatically deletes all the painstaking reminiscences brought by you? How can I say to my heart who only listens to you? And how can say it to my heart who has been blind and numb to all your disregards?               

But deep within, I’m hurting, deep within, my heart is weakening, its gasping. And worst, I’m fastened. So please now, tell it to my heart, so that it may again take its breath.                                                                                                   

Tell it to my heart… tell my heart the words it needs to hear…please… tell it to my heart carefully.

the less educated heart

what makes an educated heart?

Sometimes I wonder what is needed to be called an “educated heart”, is it the numbers of diploma that you have? Or the certificates you have posted on your walls, or the plaques of recognition you have meticulously arranged on your table? Is it the number of applauded speeches you have earned? Many people would answer yes,but is it really?

what makes a less educated heart?                                                                                                                          

I come into thinking, will you be a less educated heart if you have no degree to offer? Will you be considered as less educated if you are occupying a rank and file position? If you are not able to enter into a discussion using either the most technical words or idiomatic expressions, will you be tagged as a less educated heart? Some people may say yes, but is it really?                                                                                                                                                          

which is the less educated heart?                                                                                                                               

Is it the illiterate who tries to excell from the God given gift of talent? Is it the untrained who tries to humbly share the self owned knowledge? Is it the inexpert who finds way for other people, so that everyone may have the same share?            

OR                                                                                                                                                                          

Is it the clever one who boastfully say, “this is my point of view and it is what should be.”? Is it the witty one who willfully steps on the head of people for self achievement? Is it the intelligent one who conceitedly blocks other people who diligently work and longs only for appreciation?                                                                       

tell me.. tell me…  what should be the measure to be called…  a less educated heart?